Yesterday was not doubt one of the most depressing days I've ever had to deal with in my life.
Earlier in the day I got a call from my mother telling me that a cousin of mine was killed at the ripe young age of 22 by the hands of a off duty cop.
http://www.11alive.com/news/news_art...?storyid=82037
Although he was killed I got the chance to talk to him over Mother's Day weekend and give him some words of wisdom. Yeah he was young and living a life that either lead to jail or some worse, I felt as though I tried and even though he chose the wrong path, I truly believe he's in a better place and I thank God for that. Although it wasn't expected to happen so soon, I feel relieved that I was able to see him and show him love before he was taken away from this life.
Yeah it's a terrible story but when my mother told me about it I didn'tthink it could get any worse. Until and few hours later. Later on last night I got a call from my mom telling my brother(who was suffering from congestive heart failure) went in the hospital on Sunday. Well around 12pm Costa Rican time I got a call from my brothers' wife telling me he died from complications due to his illness. It was the worst phone call I've ever had to recieve as an adult since getting the call of my fathers death 2 years ago.
I guess the point I'm getting at is, my brother and I are the only kids my mother had and most of our adult life we've fought. Yeah we've made up several times but it's always been tention. The last time I heard my brothers voice was when a close family friend called me while he was with my brother and during that conversation he told me "This is your only brother and there's no reason you two should be talking especially over some bullshit" Well after that conversation I never talked talked to my brother.
Well now it's too late and he's gone and I have to live with the fact that I never got a chance to tell him "Although we have our differences Rob, I love you man and I always will".
If you can read this and get my meaning behind it don't wait till it's too late, cause when their gone, you'll know the feeling eating a hole in my heart right now.
Say what you want but, after as many drinks as I've had right about now, it can't get any worse that it is.
Take Care all and I'll be around.....