Donny,
I suggest that before you make any "contractual" arrangements with the Big J you take a day to drive down to Emeryville and visit the Siddha Yoga Ashram. I am sure that you will find it the most peaceful place that you have ever been.
You will find the same solace that you seem to be observing in Christianity and you will understand that your success (in any industry) is a gift from GOD not something to be pushed away.
I am not trying to convert you I am just trying to open your eyes to other options on the road to happiness. You do not have to make 180 degree shifts to please GOD.
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