This was about 4 months ago and I don't know what to do. She's been really great about getting back in shape and is even starting to get a little aggressive in initiating sexual contact. Before she got pregnant, we were like rabbits - all the time, anywhere, every position. Then, when she got pregnant, I started seeing her in a bit of a different way.
Finally, when she gave birth, I saw way too much. Our son's head ripped her vagina open. She lost control of her bowels. The resulting mix of blood, shit, and amniotic fluid produced a sight and smell in the delivery room I never EVER want to experience again.
Any other GFYer dads experience this? I should have stayed in the waiting room but she insisted that I "
be there for the birth of our child. "
I'm really at a loss here. The result is that I find her unattractive, even sexually repulsive now. She might think I'm having an affair, but I'm not. Yet.
