Originally Posted by Donny

Look,

I realize everyone is going to side with Belinda because she is still in the industry and I am not. But the facts of the matter is that I begged that this stop, and it didn't. Belinda actually left me for Mark (Spannow) and one point and I couldn't take it. My mind was shattered. I was stupid and thought I was doing her a favor by fulfilling her fantasy of two guys at once. I was stupid thinking it wouldn't screw things up for us. It did. It was horrible. I was the dumbest person on the face of the earth and thought we had such a great relationship that we could withstand anything. At the time I believed that. I was so damn naive. She left me for Mark in LA at the webmaster access 2005 and he made me come back and pick her up because he didn't want to lose his woman for Belinda. She meant nothing to him, but she left me for him nonetheless. Now you all know the full truth. I was shattered. My friends told me she loved me for the money alone, but I refused to believe them. I feel like an idiot because they were right. I thought she actually did love me but was so damn wrong. I have a huge ego and couldn't deal with the rejection. She saw Mark as a step up. I can admit that. I can admit my ego was crushed when she got out of my car after me begging her for 2 hours not to do so, and went up to Mark's room to be with him instead. I thought 5 years together (at the time) would mean more to her than that. I was very stupid and that is why I lost my mind. I love her so damned much and she didn't love me as I thought she did. She loved the money that got her out of a very poor lifestyle (her parents made less than a grand a month her entire life, no shit). My best friend tried to warn me and I ignored him. I should have listened. I should have known. But I didn't. After I realized the truth life meant something totally different to me. If I didn't have a son I'd have blown my brains out but thank God I did. I was weak and don't belong in adult. I hate her now so much but still wish her the best at the same time. How stupid is that? Fucking gold digger. So all of you rally around her because she's a pretty girl, okay? Make life good for her because you want to fuck her. You go boys! You go!

As for me, I'm out of here and please please please someone send Belinda money so she can get out of my fucking house. I can't heal until she's gone.

Leave, you money grubbing whore! You decided not to be with me the second you saw there was no more money. Just go and get on with your life! Go! Now!

Goodbye, GFY. This has been my best birthday ever.