Oh and Donny? The best thing you can do is be with your friends and heal. Being here and stewing over this will only turn to poison inside. It's a shitty situation all around with a lot of fault and blame being placed, but in your state of mind/emotion, none of that is going to help you. Get off the computer and go be with people who care about you. Call one of your church friends, hell GO TO CHURCH, but the path you are travelling now is a self-destructive one and will not do the love you are mourning, or yourself, any good in the end. I may not agree with you, I might think some of your choices are a bit nutty, but you're still a nice guy under it all and this ugliness isn't what you want, not really
