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Originally Posted by Donny
I really don't care if people here think I've gone crazy or not. Seriously.
Belinda showed the ultimate lack of respect tonight. After all that has happened since August 2005 this tops the cake. Here's the thing: I started talking to her about this early this morning but it didn't make any difference.
If she wanted to start something new with someone else, fine. But why choose to go screw Spannow, who is at the heart of all of this, on my birthday? That's just the ultimate slap in the face.
Yeah, I look nutty in this thread. So what? Really, so what. Do you think I really care what all of you think after this has happened? Seriously now. None of you can do a thing to me that hasn't already been done.
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I don't think you've gone crazy but I do think you're on a destructive path.
I'm not reading the entire thread because I imagine from the first few pages I've read that a lot of it is poking fun at a situation that you obviously are hurt by.
Now step back and analyze your situation. The blame is on neither of you - it's how you handle it from here that will show who's got the maturity.
She told you a fantasy, you wanted to make it happen for her. The situation got too hot for you to handle. You step away and go the way of GOD, ask her to come along, she doesn't want to.
Fast forward all the bickering and emotional abuse you've been handing to eachother the past few months. Today is your birthday, obviously, for many reasons, she doesn't want to be with you. As a 'religious' person, I don't see why you want to harm her name and reputation. Are you trying to get back at Spannow with the threats to expose this and take her into the tornado at the same time? Why are you expecting her to find another lover and not him? Do you think you have control over her emotions or her physical attractions?
You consistently come back here to piss on her - you continue to give pieces of info from your relationship that does not belong here, you show lack of respect to your now finished relationship. You are in definite need of counselling (not the religious kind), some therapy and perhaps pills in order to allow you to cope. You are not turning the other cheek. Remember, you don't own her - she doesn't have to do what you tell her. If you two are not 'together' then she is not obliged, nor should it expected that she be there at midnight to wish you a happy birthday. If she is with someone else & your story together is finished - even more so.
I don't understand how you can claim to have loved someone for so long and then want to destroy their future in business or with someone else. I just can't understand that concept & in the same breath, try to convince the world around you that you are a 'reborn' man with religion giving you a new life.
I hope you stepaway, take some time to think and look at all the beautiful things that you experienced in the relationship rather than focusing on the bad part of it. Move on - you are not doing yourself any good. Your continuous destruction to the good memories will not make her come back.
Happy Birthday Donny.