Originally Posted by Pleasurepays

you want people to dislike you.. it seems that you do this so you can let others push you away, create some distance between you and this place, the business, the life, your ex and common friends and to push yourself closer to religion and allow you to keep telling yourself "yep, i did the right thing... they are nothing but a bunch of assholes and doing something morally wrong".

you are trying to manage your enormous issues by baiting people into attacking you so you can continue in your effort to put everyone in the "bad" category, so you can feel better about yourself, your life and the choices you have made.