sonofsam

Okay, this is really hard for me to come back here and type this shit, but i felt that i owed it to some people who invested time into me and helped me etc..

I just want to say that i never wanted to fuck any affiliates over. I just want to say what happened about how my program went down without any warning to affiliates etc.

I understand you guys will still hate me, and i just want to say that i am completely out of online, and that me making this thread is just something i've personally felt i needed to do for a long time... and now that my head is more clear, i'm able to do it.

Here is the real way my program went down. More then a year ago... I started having a really hard time sleeping every night. I would wake up numerous times a night because of my breathing problems. I went to a doctor and turns out i had a clogged airway, and needed surgery.... the surgery cost over 5000.. that i didnt have my hands on at the time... and medicare didn't think i needed the surgery because it wasn't urgent, so it was NOT covered.

(people like baddog started spreading rumors that i got the 5000 loan so i could buy a motorcycle since the motorcycle had been around that time... which is COMPLETELY false, because i have a records of my surgery cost, and also have my loan documents sitting beside me with proof that it was a 0 down loan... or if anybody is in vancouver, they can come take at the loan documents themselves)

So i asked kevin from thebestporn for a loan... the deal was that he would lend me 5000 and i would pay him back within 2 months... but since he was giving me the loan i would pay him 1500 interest.... 1500 interest for a 5000 loan for 2 months.... anyways... i had to use my domains juliablue, sexfeeder as collateral to get the loan... so i transfered the domains to him and he sent me the 5000..... within 2 months i had paid him his 5000 back... so he now had his money back, and still had my domains... now i wasnt able to pay the interest on time... because of some other stuff that happened.. not going to make any excuses about that, but i just couldnt pay the 1500 back in time... but i figured since he got his money back and still had my domains he would hold on to them for quite a while... my mistake... i was wrong..so he sold the domains to baddog... i'm sure baddog didn't even value the domains at 1500, but figured since he hated me so much it would be worth it... which i would have in all honestly done the same thing in his place.. I don't blame kevin for this.. it was my fault..

baddog got the domains and redirected them to lightspeed etc etc...

Now i'm truly sorry i didnt send a warning to affiliates that all their links would be redirected... that was a completely stupid move on my part, but i was just in such a fucked up mindset at the time that it didnt even occur to me that i should have done that right away.. i was just really pissed and frustrated... mostly at myself for fuckign up this bad in adult...

my adult program was a complete bomb... i fucked up so badly, and couldn't make it work... and i really really fucking wanted it to work... i wanted it so badly, but i clearly was not cut out for this.... (no shit huh?) i wasted 2 years of my life.. lost 15-20k+ and it was a horrible failure...

sorry to the people i fucked over in this process of my program going down.. i truly am sorry, but i know that in itself probably wont be enough for you to forgive my mistakes..

and mostly i'm sorry to the people who defended and spoke highly of me... and the people who helped me so much along the way (chio... mutt... aftershock.. andy etc), for me to turn around and fuck up like this and make them look like idiots as well..

i hope everyone is doing well, and if u have anythin u need to say to me... i'll be online on icq for a long time or i'll try and reply to you in this thread...

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