I am sorry you are going thru this Matt. I wish you only the very best in your future. It takes a very big person to admit defeat the way you have and I know full well where you are coming from. It wasn't so long ago that I had to go thru very similar things when my program got way too big for me and health issues arised from the stress and everything snowballed for me..... so I know probably better than most what you are going thru right now and I feel for you.
It takes very little to fail, but it takes A LOT to admit you failed..... kudos to you for being a REAL man, many could take notes from you.
