Hrmmmmm... Boneprone you're playing above your limit mang, not that you can't afford it, but your poker bankroll can't afford it, because the players who can consistently play at those levels are much better than you are, basically. If you went down in limits and started consistently winning your games, then you can move up and face the better opponents.
In a live game however, I wouldn't mind you even sitting down with $12k, because there's a lot more room for play. A solid player is still going to clean you though!
I suck too... I've had a chance to talk in real life with a lot of poker pros though, just find it hard to play online well, no self control.
I've met phil ivey, andy bloch, chris ferguson, phil hellmuth, howard lederer, all the female players... I even got to wear both of Devil Fish's two-finger rings..
I went to Monte Carlo for the Poker Millions in 2005 I believe it was.. Phil Ivey won the $1m first prize, then took another $600k playing in a Full Tilt tournament televised inside of one of the famous casinos there. Was only the 3rd time in history they let a film crew inside the casino.. One of the others was for a James Bond movie I remember.