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I'd say hope for the future and the glee of learning new things. I miss other things but they were outweighed by the negatives. Innocense always came with fear of the unknown. I never liked being "innocent" because I knew that I couldn't fend for myself effectively. And being small, you know that any adult can kick your ass and there would be nothing you could do about it. Also, adults said things to you and you didn't know how to judge it because you had no experience with it. And a lot of conflicting info - adults would tell you not to do things yet you would see them do exactly those things regularily. I used to envy older kids when I'd watch them break the rules and be able to talk their way out of punishment with teachers/elders. Not having responsibility? Sure, not paying bills, but you were forced to go to school every day, forced to obey the 'law' laid down by your parents. There was responsbilities, just of a different nature. Not being 'responsible' landed me in the principals office. Freedom? Like not being able to go where you want when you want, eat what you want when you want, not being able to buy what you want (clothes etc)? I hated that.
As we get older we probably have a tendency to idealize childhood but I don't. It sucked.
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