Your perception on everything is skewed. I am sorry. You do need help, but if you're happy how you are... then far be it from me for you to change.
If everyone sees you as a certain way.. it's because you project that... In the grandchild thread that halfpint posted..instead of saying congrats.. you had to talk about how you were a premie who made it... in another thread talking about money.. you went on some pity party story about your "first million dollars"... You find threads that have nothing, in any way, to do with you... and make them about you... in some quasi "positive" light..
And thinking that on a board full of business men, men addicted to hookers and blow, woman who are greedy cunts who enjoy porn (ala, me)... and sports freaks.. you're going to somehow find positive feedback and sympathy?
Maybe from the 2-3 other extremely mentally disturbed members of GFY.. but if your thinking is that because we're some sort of alternative lifestyle.. that we're going to "get yours".. you're wrong.
This is business.. business wrapped up in entertainment.. conducted by greedy, feet grounded business people... If you're expecting friendship or adoration from anyone here... make a few grand a month on a program... tell us about a vacation, car, diet, food.. REAL LIFE STUFF... then maybe something will come out of it..
But this emo, need for attention shit.. is going to get you bullied like a little kid on the playground...
and I can tell you... that once you grow up and get over trying to be artistic and wallowing in self pity (and take your meds)... your life will change.
If you don't want to hear that.. it's okay
Carry on doing what you're doing...
But by putting yourself out there.. you open yourself up to a HOST of criticism... from the realists of the world.. who took their head out of the clouds and out of their ass.