the "story" is that YOU are acting like a lunatic. not everyone else. "do you love her" blah blah... dude, you've gone off the deep end.
"i didn't want to hurt her but you are forcing my hand" - you seriously can't see how insane remarks like that are?
you are talking crazy shit.
i mean bat shit crazy, followed her at night to her car and stabbed her 20 times in the throat while telling her you love her and putting on her lipstick, crazy.
her teeth? her scars? taught her how to wipe her ass? "looking like she lived on the street..." yet you are the one who is obsessed (eh "madly in love")? really? you don't see all the issues here?
this is love?
lets look at this another way.
take a step back.
lets imagine your mother is telling you about her new boyfriend. the guy who lies and robs and steals and can't be trusted. the guy who is a crack addict who would be dead or in jail without her. the guy who didn't know how to wipe his ass until she met him. the guy with nasty teeth and scars. the guy who couldn't stop putting his cock in every nasty skank while telling your mom he loved her. the guy who was with another big fat nasty girl while telling her she loved him. and then listen to your mom go on and on about how she is madly in love with him.
you... uhm... really wouldn't see the issues there?
you're not "in love". you belong on meds and in a psych ward. i don't know whats wrong with you. i know that at a minimum, you have a very distorted self image that is not even remotely close to being in line with how others see you. weird that you have to keep imploding like this and can't see that. you're not a victim, you are the antagonist.
relationships are based on selfish emotional needs. whether its getting beat up every other night, being put down, being built up, being in control or being dominated or whatever... "love" is the product of the fulfillment of those needs. the type of person you seek out for relationships says EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU. the fact that you can openly admit this person is fucked up beyond help and then go on and on about how "madly in love with her" you are says a lot about where your head is at. it has nothing to do with who's right, who's wrong or the details. you've painted a very clear picture of who and what you are and where your head is at... and "the deal"... "the site", the model etc etc etc all have nothing to do with anything. these things are how you rationalize your absurd behavior.. but your behavior, at its core, remains self destructive and insane and paints a picture of a deeply troubled person, regardless of the who, what, how, where and when of the situation(s).
