Originally Posted by Pleasurepays

Sticky, EVERYONE has issues. however, my wife is not a toxic personality, she is not a drug addict... which is something that is always, almost without exception, driven by emotional trauma ,.. and i am not drawn to self destructive situations and relationships.

my relationship is the product of me fucking 100's of models and giving a lot of long and hard thought to what i really wanted, who i wanted to be with and what kind of relationship i want to have and with who i would want to spend the rest of my life with. i have had two serious relationships in my life at 38 years old and i am going on my 9th year of marriage.

you however, are not talking about "flaws"... you are not talking about a touch of narcissism, having a quick temper or any small, common thing. you are describing a deeply troubled person, deeply disturbing behaviors and drug addiction and then talking about how you are "madly in love with her" while you put her down and say horrible things about her which is not only a clear contradiction.. but says a lot about you, where your head is at and a toxic relationship requires two. we seek out people based on emotional needs. you both sought each other out for whatever reason. in your case, its troubling because you have described nothing but horrible, disgusting and self destructive behaviors. you were drawn to that. you were drawn to that because you are fucked up. your relationships are a reflection of you and who and what you are. people choose to be around like people.