Originally Posted by After Shock Media

I do not take the debates personally. Just a small handful of people I would place in my do not like category. The rest are just people I know, friends, associates, and assorted folks I occasionally bitch with over nothing to important really (the majority).

I have not posted a recent long ass update. Felt you all had enough with Paul and well even though the trolls do not bother me they pollute such threads and get people bitching.

Quick synapses: I had and beat cancer 2 years ago. Different type showed up earlier this year, type of skin cancer but on scar tissue. Should of been a non issue but the hospital somehow fucked everything up. I pretty much almost kicked the bucket that day and even though I only remember a day or two apparently there was close to 8 surgeries or procedures and somehow they fucked my kidneys to boot - they at least are doing better.
Anyways this left me with a gapping wound that needs dressing changed daily, in home nurse, lots of fucking drugs, and I am not allowed to even sit up. I am gurney transport everywhere do to risk of sudden bleed out or other shit.

I of course have been a sitting duck with a huge open wound infection wise. I am also waiting to get into Stanford so 2 surgeons can work on me. Since after everything the first hospital did not even remove all of the fucking cancer. Cancer is not spreading, not in super bad place etc. They just can not use chemo or radiation as it would kill my immune system and with my wound would mean very fucked for me. Anyways I need to have them cut out the rest and then I can have the other figure out how we will close up the wound at a latter surgery date.

Friday - I have an appointment at Stanford to meet with both doctors. To get evaluated, give them my films, and meet them to set a future date. Anyways I need to be down there by 9am for my appointments. That means leaving here around 4am or so. The problem is transportation. My asshole oncologist refuses to write a prescription for medical transport. So unless I can convince my wound doctor to write a script for such even though he is not the referring doctor. It would mean I would have to take normal transportation down there. That also means sitting up for 12-14 hours which is like 11.45 to 13.45 more time up than I am allowed. Not to mention no increase in pain meds which pretty much do not work worth a shit anyways.

To top it off my hemoglobin is sitting at 5.4 which is VERY fucking anemic and means I need blood in a serious way. Can not go get it and miss the appointment since that would tie me up for a week or so. Though one good bleed and I am in the land of dirt. Isn't gambling fun.

Secondary hope is at very least I could get my secondary doctor to write me a script for liquid morphine drops I can take as needed to be zoned out during travel. That would at least help with half of the battle.

So anyways if I am not here late Saturday either I am stuck in some ER between here and Stanford or poof!