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SleazyDream · 01-08-2010, 10:12 PM

Anxiety cripples me before I go to a convention....

I know many people see me as an outgoing guy but when I haven't traveled in a while the thought of meeting people and what they will say to do to me is crippling. Esp considering the events of this last year.

In reality I see very few people in my day. My GF, my dog, maybe visit my parents so my dog can see them for 20 mins (he loves them and their dog) - and if I'm lucky some store clerk. That's about it. The rest of the time I'm cooped up in my house working, sleeping, eating, pooping or watching TV. Boring life. (actually the same life I had before bankruptcy and before i got into the bar biz). I like it like that and honestly I do LOVE the travel and the people from this industry.

I guess you could call it fear. Maybe I mask it by forcing myself to get in peoples faces but in the end I feel this monster lurking over my back waiting to crush me. I understand the feelings others have about meeting people, I get them myself. It's why I try my best to introduce myself but sometimes I fall prey to my comfort zone and stick to those I know. Honestly one of the best people I know for forcing them self to get out of this 'comfort zone' is Brad Mitchel. I give him a lot of credit for having the guts to just get out there and introduce himself to strangers. He's inspiring.

anyway, just want to vent and say I won't be able to sleep tonight worrying about what to do at this show, and that might make things worse for me tomorrow (Saturday)

But I'm looking forward to this and hoping for the best.

Thank you AaronM for the flight and for letting me stay with you!
Thank you Evil Chris and AVN for your incredible hospitality.
Thank you Brad, Dmoney, Mike and Fade for the dinner Invites and players ball invites.

onward - Vegas baby Vegas.......

01-08-2010, 10:12 PM
SleazyDream I'm here for SPORT Industry Role: Join Date: Jul 2001 Location: Phone # (401) 285-0696 Posts: 41,470	Anxiety cripples me before I go to a convention.... Anxiety cripples me before I go to a convention.... I know many people see me as an outgoing guy but when I haven't traveled in a while the thought of meeting people and what they will say to do to me is crippling. Esp considering the events of this last year. In reality I see very few people in my day. My GF, my dog, maybe visit my parents so my dog can see them for 20 mins (he loves them and their dog) - and if I'm lucky some store clerk. That's about it. The rest of the time I'm cooped up in my house working, sleeping, eating, pooping or watching TV. Boring life. (actually the same life I had before bankruptcy and before i got into the bar biz). I like it like that and honestly I do LOVE the travel and the people from this industry. I guess you could call it fear. Maybe I mask it by forcing myself to get in peoples faces but in the end I feel this monster lurking over my back waiting to crush me. I understand the feelings others have about meeting people, I get them myself. It's why I try my best to introduce myself but sometimes I fall prey to my comfort zone and stick to those I know. Honestly one of the best people I know for forcing them self to get out of this 'comfort zone' is Brad Mitchel. I give him a lot of credit for having the guts to just get out there and introduce himself to strangers. He's inspiring. anyway, just want to vent and say I won't be able to sleep tonight worrying about what to do at this show, and that might make things worse for me tomorrow (Saturday) But I'm looking forward to this and hoping for the best. Thank you AaronM for the flight and for letting me stay with you! Thank you Evil Chris and AVN for your incredible hospitality. Thank you Brad, Dmoney, Mike and Fade for the dinner Invites and players ball invites. onward - Vegas baby Vegas....... __________________ This dog, is dog, a dog, good dog, way dog, to dog, keep dog, an dog, idiot dog, busy dog, for dog, 20 dog, seconds dog! Now read without the word dog.