IMO, getting smashed is not the best way to deal with it and could make things worse. dont try and hide from it, accept what happened and grieve, its a natural process of life. Its not something easy to go through at all whether its a family member, close friend or pet, but going to booze or trying to hide from it, will only make things worse.
ive had friends try to only push aside and ignore what has happened then end up exploding shortly after and their life was a mess. instead take some time to yourself, remember the person for who they were and what they brought in your life, as I'm sure thats how they would want you to remember them, not getting bomb drunk and throwing your tv through your bedroom window at 3am.
if you dont have anyone close to confide in, try going to a church or support group. it might seem corny, but they are there for a reason. speak whats on your mind, these people are going through something similar and will help in the grieving process. dont feel stupid for going or be ashamed. whats the worst thats going to happen? you will talk about your feelings, share with a few people, then never see them again? give it a shot, I'm sure you will feel much better.
I am sorry for your loss and wish you the best
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