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Meloman · 01-19-2010, 10:59 PM

I have a major phobia of death and funerals. My dad passed when I was 6 and almost every year after till about 20 I had close family friends that I considered like grandparents pass. My mom had lots of friends and especially older couples that I considered like grandparents.

Because I was young I didn't have to go to the funerals and finally went when I was 10. It traumatized me and I've never been to one since. It was someone that was like a 2nd father and he was wearing the tie my brother and I gave him for Fathers Day. To this day I can't remember his face but I can remember the tie and my mothers sobbing.

So I learned to cope by skipping funerals this way I don't have to see the body or people grieving and thus the ONLY memories I have are of them alive and happy. I've been lucky that my family understands and is not insulted by the flaking.

For me it's great to ONLY be able to picture the person alive and happy. I know the person is gone, but I have zero flash backs of the funeral and casket and for me that's great. So I guess I cope by acting like the death never happened.

My dog recently passed and I've been putting off picking up her ashes at the vet. I don't want to be reminded of her death. Death sucks.

I'm sorry for your loss Amp

01-19-2010, 10:59 PM
Meloman Confirmed User Industry Role: Join Date: Jul 2001 Location: Sacramento,CA Posts: 1,540	I have a major phobia of death and funerals. My dad passed when I was 6 and almost every year after till about 20 I had close family friends that I considered like grandparents pass. My mom had lots of friends and especially older couples that I considered like grandparents. Because I was young I didn't have to go to the funerals and finally went when I was 10. It traumatized me and I've never been to one since. It was someone that was like a 2nd father and he was wearing the tie my brother and I gave him for Fathers Day. To this day I can't remember his face but I can remember the tie and my mothers sobbing. So I learned to cope by skipping funerals this way I don't have to see the body or people grieving and thus the ONLY memories I have are of them alive and happy. I've been lucky that my family understands and is not insulted by the flaking. For me it's great to ONLY be able to picture the person alive and happy. I know the person is gone, but I have zero flash backs of the funeral and casket and for me that's great. So I guess I cope by acting like the death never happened. My dog recently passed and I've been putting off picking up her ashes at the vet. I don't want to be reminded of her death. Death sucks. I'm sorry for your loss Amp Last edited by Meloman; 01-19-2010 at 11:01 PM..