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Well, I wish I had exciting adventures to share but I pretty much did nothing. Shut everyone out, read alot, tv, facebook gaming, lol...etc. Before I knew it, a whole year went by.

Actually, on Mothers day last year, I decided to move back to my hometown after being out in the woods an hour away for almost a year. So this whole year has been spent tinkering around in my new apartment, getting out in public again, and enjoying my daughter and being close again to my family and friends.

I was in no shape to work at all, even part time. When I dedicate myself to doing something, I like to go full force or not at all. You really can't do this kind of work a few hours here and there. It doesn't work very well at all. And the waves of grieving would just come out of nowhere and floor me for days or weeks at a time to where I couldn't do anything at all.

I learned that year 2 and 3 are supposed to be the worst so I'm coming up on completing year 3 in two weeks on the 21st. So, basically it STILL sucks just as bad as a year ago or more but I got the skills now to roll with it much better. I'm thinking this is as good as it's going to get so I can start living life as everything "is" now.

So I'm just eating healthy and jogging a bit (I gained weight ugh), started writing a book, applied for college, and the best and most amazing part... I quit smoking!!

There's pretty much nothing I can't take on or handle now so I'm officially back in the saddle and ready to live life as well as I can with the cards I got handed. It's sink or swim!

Hi WG! Thanks Cyber Fucker.. Miss you too Rhonda!