Been thinking about this here.... and I think you've landed on the answer. Of all of the things I've done, from soldiering through long haul driving and Internet to today, the only regret I have is having sat on my ass in front of a computer for the last ten years. After everything I've seen out there, nothing in the suburban world even compares. It's a completely different life.
I never leave the house, I have no actual human friends that, you know, you can see with your eyes or reach out and physically touch and shit. Not only am I bored with everything, but I'm bored at the idea of things. Everything is bland to me.
I used to go rappelling off bridges and cliff faces and shit like, 3 or 4 times a week, just for fun. My life in suburbia consists of "Oh say, um... such and such is having a 'Welcome Party' for their new kitten, so we should start thinking of what type of dessert and wine to bring, mkay?" "Yes dear."
It's not that I don't love my wife, it's just the most... time wasting, money wasting, unnecessary everyday crap like this... that there will be enough food to feed 300 people. Makes me wish I was in a coma.
When I soldiered and was on the road, (1987-1999) all I used to dream of was "having a normal life in like, an apartment or something with cable bills and a girlfriend or hangin' out with friends bbqing meat and shit...." and then I finally got it. And it sucks.
