Been doing some more thinking today about it? all this input and feedback is fantastic by the way, thank you everyone so far.
Still undecided though. It's very compelling. The reason I left the military the first time around is because a lot of my buddies were dead set on being career lifers, and I couldn't help but wonder what I'd miss out on if I stayed in. Combined with that, my Captain wouldn't let me change my MOS, and that was the dealbreaker. I was already pretty far out of touch with normal society by then. (not sure I've ever been in touch with it, lol) Well, I think that question has been answered. Mediocrity in suburbia awaits us all. Kind of like death. Death by re-runs of Friends & Seinfeld.
And so now that I'm nearing the end of my re-entry window, another block-of-life question has risen. Do I want to forever ask myself, "What if I was able to rejoin and finish my career time, and didn't?" Because that time is now. Ten or twenty years from now is far too late. So, I think in order to avoid regret, what I need to do is a self-diagnostic test first. If I can't survive 2 months here, of at least half intensity of what I'd have to go through, then I can put the whole thing to rest and leave the Taliban hunting to the 20 year-olds. So that's the next step I guess. Find out for real if I'm physically just too old or not. So I'll post my results in a couple of months I guess.
And in a way, it's sort of like one of those questions everyone always wonders aloud? "What if you could go back and do over [something] with what you know today?" So maybe not exactly a do-over? but sort of.
