minicivan

You have a very twisted world view. Rather than dealing with your illness and mental deficiencies, you instead spend your days and what seems to be the majority of your time searching for information that supports that twisted world view so that you can be more comfortable with it, even though on some level you understand how fucked up you are.

The only reason for continually posting this crap here or typing in massive letters is because, just as any cult does, you try to recite it all over and over and over, both to reinforce these ideas in your own mind while also hoping to pick up a believer here and there which will also serve to reinforce your own delusions and reaffirm to yourself that you are correct, not just some deluded and sick person who desperately needs therapy and medication.

But anyway, as we both know, nothing is going to sway you or change your mind because "you are right"... and more importantly, you need to be right or those emotional walls you've constructed to protect your very weak emotional state will come crumbling down, causing a mental breakdown of epic proportions. But you probably know that because I would guess that its happened already.