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Originally Posted by MetaMan
So like the rabbit in Donny Darko? I am trying to understand.
So your personal reality doesnt seem "real" but to you it is "real"?
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No its the like things that come out of there stomics that he follows up the stairs to his moms room and finds the gun.. It just is like a see threw aperation of the whole person and they like strech and go towards people and usualy in bad places..
To tell the truth I went crazy by doing a reflective phase of my life from like after high school to a time where i was working alot with media and celebs and stuff and sence i was alone for so long time I have a distorted vision between real and made up things i did with the people i was working around with at the begining..
Then I set cozy with my half made up half reflective storys and things that i really did.. I started talking to myself and it got so bad I had nothing to do so i was like 10 years of this with no friends that came over no phone no internet just basic tv and a radio and I whould like talk to the celebs to my self answering my self as both partys.. so this leads to me not knowing what is real and Another thing is my cousin is in death cab for cutie and I dont know how we left off when i did strike out for this 10 year period of crazy scitzo talking back and forth between myself so I dont know how to talk to him about my music i do make myself now..
So to bring it to avril I have a few things i do believe That we knew each other but there are alot of made up things so I really cant tell.. Like check this.. As im speaking right now I can see her apperation of her and also a slight warmness of her or anyone else that is hooked to this.. I could talk for hours about things i made up but its the real things that Im trying to figure out now..
but becides that Im good here in a warm dry bed with 3 meals and a internet I can try to make it back sucessful again...