I just realized yesterday that I've been hating everything for several years, now. I think fixing that will be good for me!! I'm not the guy who hates people for having nice shit, but I got to where I did nothing but get mad at certain things I can't stand. Then I would drink and get enraged like a maniac.
You know, go out driving, want to murder every driver for being so brain dead. Finally figure out that god doesn't give a fuck about me, curse him non stop. See chomos on television getting a slap on the wrist and wanting to break their faces for them. Then I'm always mad and angry about the government outright raping everyone from a thousand angles. Etc etc etc
Well, now, I've been feeling great because every time I feel like cursing or breaking something or getting real mad... I just settle down and say fuck it
I think that I am minus the heart attack that was coming and plus a-lot of money before too long now that I fixed myself. When it got to the point where I'd rather be home, by myself, drunk and alone and starting fights with people all over town, than have a foxy broad over to give her a spanking and cum in her mouth - that is when I realized how wrong I'd been
I just am going to appreciate what I do have. Good food, my favorite lady friend is finally getting better at blowjobs, my favorite television programs, a good running automobile, reasonably good health and hopefully a ton more sobriety
