I am completely fucked, here. I think it's because I drank so much, but I can't make a direct correlation between the two things. I have some really good ideas, and I think I still know how to make money.. It's been a long time, though, because I only make enough to "coast by" and then drink until I'm all but dead. Then I lay in bed for several days only getting up to puke or piss. Then I say wow I hope I never do THAT again. Then I do it again.
I don't spend all of my money on alcohol. I'm talking about the result of it. Drinking doesn't cost a-lot.
What is is about alcohol that ALWAYS pulls me back in? I don't even seem to enjoy it, or want to do it, but then BLAM I do it. The last several years flew by me like hours, shit is real, this is getting scary here
