For those of you who know me, know that I started with Splitinfinity years ago, and was pretty much the joker of the board, got pranks pulled on me and overall very serious when it came to business. When I started back in 05 and was introduced to this industry, I was nothing but a young 18 yr old man who drove at that point my prized possession... A 1986 ford bronco 2, which was nick named rusty.
At this point in my life, I had just moved out on my own, had no money, working average 10-16 hour days and my future wife at the time was just a nagging bitch and could not handle the fact that I delt with the porn industry. I was fucking miserable.
However at this juncture in my life I weighed about 240-250 pounds which is big but, overall I was healthy. I could run, I could jump and I could fuck like a champ.
As the years go by, now at 24 years old a lot has changed. I have married that nagging bitch who has become my biggest supporter, and fan. I am also blessed to have a 6 month old son, and I currently live in a 3 bedroom two story town house in San Diego.
I am making enough money to afford all our bills and recently put me in a situation where my wife could quit work and stay at home with our son. I have also started making my name for myself in the local music community and to be honest preforming has always been a dream of mine and in the end pretty much I am happy.
At this point many of you are asking well then what the downfall...
The downfall is that as I become happier and as I have made more money, physically I have become lazy. I do not eat a lot but I only eat once or twice a day if that. I have severe obstructive sleep apena, and I get about an hour a sleep a night at best. My weight has sky rocketed to a whopping 370 pounds and it is funny that you never really realize how bad it is until you have gotten to the point where you cannot take 5 steps without gasping for air.
My point is although I never forgot where I came from, success and happiness can potentially be a fast track to death. I will get healthy again, and I will lose the weight and I am going to do it for myself and my wife and child.
The reason why I post this is because, there are many of us who have fallen really low in life and we do not realize it because we are happy, or we have money . I take these words and suggest to all of you, regardless if its weight, attitude, risky behavior yadi yadi yadi. Take a moment to stop and look at yourself in the mirror with a fresh prospective and see the faults maybe that have possibly put you on a fast track to death, and begin to make the changes before its to late.
Yours,
Everyone fav fat little ewalk.
- September 2005
Present day