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Originally Posted by Agent 488
breaking the triggers will help. bad influences sometimes have to be left behind.
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This environment hammers your soul to death. Everyone in this town says oh nothing will ever get better, they think welfare is their salary, they hate any new ideas, the women don't please a man, the women all do drugs and carry crotch bugs, the women expect you to do dishes and pay for things, when you help a business owner with something they don't appreciate it, no one will do business with you if you're not from here, on and on and fucking on and on
I have a wonderful hard working sister here and a grandmother who loves me ... my grandmother is why I thought I should be here, they took her money and turned backs on her so I am always there for her and all of this. My sister works hard and is in college... I want to get out and make money again so she won't have to work AND go to school
Well now I finally got my mother who lives with her to start contributing towards the bills and to treat grandma a-lot better (mom had a huge stroke and lacks compassion some times)
My father is here I've bought him truck payments and everything else he is into me a fortune but he use to make and spend a-lot on me so I let it go... He will give you money when he has it, just never does any more. .. but him and mom spent all of grandmas money and I am still to this day expected to be her keeper
My phone rings ten times a day with one of them needing me to solve a problem or do this or that on and on and on
I don't even know why I'm rambling about it all [/vent]