Tam

I couldn't agree more here. I see a lot of "I had", "I did" and so on..... and trust me when I say, Loki, I was so like that too. Nothing ever gets done looking back over your shoulder, so what you were successful then, you aren't now... and I mean that with all the utmost respect I can muster. But I say that from experience, in everything.

I had a couple of nervous breakdowns, one before the Adult Industry and one since and because of this industry, and it took me a great deal of time to get thru them, but the second one was far easier to get out of. I woke up one day and realized that nothing back there was going to help me right now, looking backwards can cause you to miss an opportunity that is right in front of your face, don't let that happen, I did that very thing a couple of times myself.

Find a positive in EVERY bad situation and put that situation on the shelf and keep the positives in your head to get you moving forward...... the bad things are just there to trip you up, and you are allowing it.

You are uber talented - positive, keep that in your head and move FORWARD.. looking over your shoulder at what was is keeping you from using that talent to get money coming in that you know is there.

I don't know you well, but trust me, I know being kicked in the teeth... and the only person that can get you out of this funk you are in is you, be positive, move forward and drive your talent in the direction it needs to be in. I've seen a lot of very smart people in this thread trying to help you and you meet them all with "I can't" for whatever reason.. stop doing that and let them help you! This negativity is going to eat you alive and then you WILL be in the streets.. you are smarter than that, let it drive you, not stop you dead in your tracks.

I wish you the best. I am in no position to really help you, if I could, I would. You have a lot of great ideas being thrown at you, you use them and do the best you can do and you will be fine.

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