[to myself]
It's never easy tho.
I am not looking for sympathy as my mom was 95, had a good life, but I lost her also earlier this year and I learned..
the best way to slowly get over things like this, there is only one way. You have to keep your mind occupied. Read threads. Make threads. Watch stuff on TV. Talk about it as I am to friends. Go places where others maybe can relate (such as this thread for someone someday) but mainly GET your mind off of it.
But no matter how well I can explain things and as a formally educated engineer, I can think very logicly. But it's a thing of the heart, not the mind.
It takes time. And there is some real pain.
When I lost mom, the hospice people for the county started contacting me and you just talk and they are very good.
Today I got a survey for them in the mail 6 months later. I was gonna throw it but I might just give it flying good marks. They did real good for me. I cried there as I cried here.
So it takes time. The hardest thing is to be alone for some reason altho I have been alone all my life. I am a loner's loner
(up until last few years)
And my cat was really never around. And when he did come in he was very often a pain.
But still he was there. I was not completely alone.
That is the thing. I am now completely alone around the house.
Maybe.. I leaned on him as much as he leaned on me.
Maybe I have been leaning on cats since I bought My first lil siamese Sam at age 19 in 1976. I put age 17 down but Sam made it to 18. 76-94
Sam was the man. Or cat.
Coolest cat ever.
I think I will have to go get a new boy.
It is the only way the heart can go on. Maybe go to the humane society. Maybe a kitten. We'll see.
I prob have to get another boy. You seen all my boys.
I guess there is no reason to stop now.