MrMaxwell

I have always lived "behind the scenes" and "off of the grid" and I don't know how to have a job or interact with regular people. . . Lived life at night asleep all day .. I call normal people "white people" but I'm white as hell, myself.

So where can I learn how to fit into society a little better? I mean no one ever really taught me- I left school when I was twelve. Kind of raised myself up and hustled this and that the whole way. I have a white vocabulary and am well spoken if I can remember how to be presentable.

Back in the day I was a money maker and I know that I still can be.... but it is as if I don't want to have money. I just recently had a couple grand I was going to buy a Fleetwood with but I just didn't "give a fuck" and spent two weeks up and down at the poker rooms (Being on medication now- adderall- didn't mix too well with the alcohol and chain smoking and chain vaping and gallons of coffee.. I didn't take over my prescribed dose of addies or anything though)

To be fair though I don't think that would have happened if what's her name didn't get sick and go insane again and run away. I don't get close to ANYONE but when I do I'm fiercely loyal and they matter more to me than me. And that is also my excuse for not doing shit- always fixing and enabling everyone else so I don't have to face my shit, I think.... That happens- right?

Sigh

Well I don't know anyone or get close to people so I thought I'd get on here and think out loud a little. Plus you assholes are more intelligent than I thought you were (remember my thread where several of you confused me to death) and I know you'll hit me right between my eyes.