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Originally Posted by slapass
It might be the internal thing. If you just got laid you are less desperate. Just learn to be that way all the time.
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That helps, too. I never get desperate, ever.
The only time I ever ended up feeling desperate was when I fell into love
I don't get close to many people and have thick skin.. I have only been truly heartbroken a few times
1994 (My grandfather died)
1996 (My mother had a huge stroke)
2001 (My grandmother betrayed me in a big way)
2003 (I was heart broken two years and drunk, my first love left me and my best friend got put down for 20+)
2008 (I fell in love and she left me, I missed her kids and her a lot. I was heart broken 2-3 months and sober and ended up having a GREAT year)
2012 (I was taking care of a woman I loved dearly while she was sick- it was a long long ordeal and I was heart broken a few months when she left but sober 99%)
2012 (I was heart broken, but not because I loved a bitch, because I loved her son and miss him a lot)
But what I HAVE ALWAYS known is. If you miss someone, do NOT pursue them, it WILL push them away. I KNOW how all of this works and I always have. Same thing with financial mistakes I have made. I'm not as stupid as I act, not in terms of understanding shit. Just in terms of my actions.
Plus, I don't think it was all that stupid to allow myself to let some people get in close. I've done that A LOT less than most of you probably do. When it come to heartbreak though I done lost so many close niggaz it's like fuck YOU and YOU and YOU but I don't think I should give up on having a down ass bitch to take over the world with.
When I find her bitch will be
1. Educated
2. Honest
3. Bi
4. Down to ride
5. Fucking incredible
6. Business minded
7. Amazing
And when it come down to it yeah I've been in some bad spots but I am THE REALEST. No one is more honest or free of bullshit than I am. I admit when I am wrong, I always am open to learning and I have an amazing way of cutting the fuck through standard human bullshit.
Am I a bitch for having a heart beating in me? Maybe. Am I thin skinned and a whiny bitch? No. Well. Maybe when someone I love leaves or betrays me or dies. But fuck it at least I ain't like most fools these days with their negative attitudes and woe is me bullshit. I accept my hardships understanding that I created them. If not for the opportunity to inflict hardship upon myself, in turn there'd be no opportunity to make it how I want it.
If I ever give myself a chance I will own all of you who talk your shit. You could never stop me. People trying to stop me was always what drove me and when I'm TRYING to do something it's best to stay the FUCK out of my way if you're human.
