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Originally Posted by TheSquealer
You gave long winded explanations as to how nothing was your fault.
That was the single recurring theme in everything you've said and seemingly... in your life.
And though it will surely fall on deaf ears, its relevant because it is your own pattern of behavior and how you view the world which puts you here today. And its that same denial that blinds you to the fact that you can't be helped because your biggest problem is you.
There is no way to help a drug addict standing at an intersection begging for money by giving him $5.00. That is, in my view the most selfish thing anyone could do. It's a selfish, feel good gesture to make the individual feel good, not to help the junkie. If you want to help the junkie... you can't do anything until the junkie admits he is a junkie... and then sincerely wants help as he then takes responsibility for his situation, for his actions, for his behavior, for his denial and is ready to put in the work to get better.
Similarly, there is no way to help someone who feels that their every problem is because of someone else or something else. You cannot help someone that does not hold themselves accountable. You cannot help someone that feels everything is "beyond my control, and thats why i am in the spot i am in". You've done exactly what you wanted to do for over 10 years in this biz. You've targeted a very narrow niche because it was something you liked. You devoted yourself to producing, what by your own admission 10 years later (or more), is mediocre at best. You can't possibly pretend that you are just a super hard worker bent on being the best you can be.
At best, you did the bare minimum to get by all these years and now you are paying for it.
I don't know anyone that is a hard worker, that strives to be the best at what they do and that always goes above and beyond that has trouble finding work. I know plenty of affiliate reps that do a great job and have other programs offering them jobs all the time. If no one is beating down your door to snatch you up because you're a great talent.. then maybe you need to start asking "why do others see me as a bad investment"
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why oh why can't I quit you lol.
I really hate playing justification theater but for whatever reason I am compelled to do so when people post the most inaccurate assumptions of me.
(And I really don't want this to be long winded....)
If you knew me, knew my personal life, the last things you would ever say or type about me is what you have, I am a damn hard worker, husband and parent and anyone who knows me or that I have done contract work for can attest to that (including those who hired me for this and that from this thread)
You claim I blame everyone for my setbacks and yet you have no clue what the setbacks were and I NEVER blamed anything or anyone, I ONLY said I lost money due to issues beyond my control (you call that blame)
Issues beyond your control
can be, unexpected medical expenses, property damage, death in the family, overhead for business, bad market / investment etc etc none of those have "blame" placed on them.
When a loved one falls ill and insurance doesn't cover things that is out of your control, If lighting strikes ______ and destroys _______ that is out of your control, if someone close to you dies that is out of your control.
I'm not going to get into my personal life and explain WHAT issues happened it's really no one business, but I assure you they WERE out of my control.
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You've done exactly what you wanted to do for over 10 years in this biz. You've targeted a very narrow niche because it was something you liked.
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NOT full of myself, OR trying to brag, but I and 4 other people created the niche, and IF it is in fact so narrow as you claim WHY do most companies have entire networks of sites in their programs backed by MY content and artists I brought into the industry? YES I liked it but more so I knew it would be something that would be very profitable, and it indeed was, is, and continues to be. (Guess that why CE and AMA just launched entire programs for 3D Toons)
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You devoted yourself to producing, what by your own admission 10 years later (or more), is mediocre at best. You can't possibly pretend that you are just a super hard worker bent on being the best you can be.
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YES YES YES my OLDER stuff is mediocre at best WHEN judged by today's standards. When it was created, sold, and used to make sites it WAS high quality for the times.
I've lost track of how many times I've said this, I STOPPED making content, I RETIRED from adult, and moved on.
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If no one is beating down your door to snatch you up because you're a great talent.. then maybe you need to start asking "why do others see me as a bad investment"
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Assumptions again, there was no "door" to beat down, I retired, I moved on, I contacted all of my clients and contract companies and informed them I was leaving AND that I would be available if they needed content or consulting or I could put them in contact with other artists when they needed content I did end up doing both mostly for free, but I was nowhere near able to take on any contracts.
As for me being a failure, never made money, can't make good content, can't market myself and whatever else has been thrown around, I thank you for teaching me GFY math...
Success + building a niche from nothing to something + retiring + launching a new company + 'Issues out of my control' + coming back to create new HD video content + holding a sale to get back into the black =
being a failure, never made money, can't make good content, can't market myself and whatever else has been thrown around.
So much for this not being long winded lol
-Loki-