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Originally Posted by SmutGiant
Well, you're kind of on to something there. It's not necessarily that I feel guilty for doing those things, it's more like irrational thoughts & warrant-less jealousy that I've spent my life slaving away to be able to pay for sex when I want it and all the girl would have to do is present the opportunity to pretty much any male. It's a fucked way of thinking that I can't seem to control.
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I, too, thought you were trolling so let me give you some real world advice on this, from my own personal experiences:
I started 5 years ago in adult with $0. That means I had to do Everything myself. I was working 7 days a week, 16 hours a day. I'd lierally wake up, eat, sit at the computer, smoke a ton of week to get me through the hours of what I called 'monkey work' and then went to bed. Got up, did it all over again. Sometimes I didn't know what day it was - is this Thursday? Tuesday? Who cares - work!!
Then my closest friends told me I was insane and they wouldn't hang out with me again until I got laid and went on vacation. LOL They were right! I was losing perspective and the ability to interact with other human beings.
So now I work (almost) as hard but I take breaks. I go OUT, leave my apartment, interact with actual humans. I now am in a relationship but back then, when I was like you seem to be now, I was completely incapable of acting 'normally' around a girl, let alone know how to have an actual relationship with one.
Time will heal this problem but you need to force yourself to take breaks. Try getting on a schedule where, come a certain time, you simply STOP ALL WORK and do ANYTHING ELSE. LOL It wil help, promise.
Hang in there, get some sleep, take care of yourself, and walk away from the computer every single day.
Good luck!!