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the thing is do i want to spend my life trying and failing over and over again in hopes of possibly eventually succeeding at something? how many years of my life will i have to sacrifice to do this? etc.
i've been doing this since i was 20 have had it all go to shit and have to start over not only from nothing but from being very deep in debt several times. i am still paying off debts from the last failure at the end of 2008. if i end up failing this time i don't know if i will be able to afford to start over doing something else again. i've poured my life, all my money, sacrificed time and relationships all on something that might just end up with me in massive debt again. i keep trucking on because, what other choice is there. there are days when i feel this will really make it, and others where i feel its all falling apart. its not so easy to keep a constant positive attitude.
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you don't know you're wearing a leash if you sit by the peg all day..
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