Originally Posted by Paul Markham

I have always suffered from it, I used to go from high to low. When I had cancer I contemplated suicide. The specialist put me on Cipralex and I'm fine. Nothing like I imagined, it doesn't numb me. Makes me feel fine.

As AK says, you need to see a doctor.

It would help if you identify what gets you down, like frustration, loneliness, lack of fulfillment, etc.