^^^YESSS
fucking
love that track
your version won't work for me (may be a geographical issue) so reposting it below in case others can't access it either
gotta be honest as I'm not into pretense and alternative facts; not at my best mentally or physically right now. been really difficult on multiple levels. this place has been my escape when I need a 10 min break from responsibility and a distraction from physical pain and grief
grew up in a fam where while very much loved wasn't allowed to express emotion, so I've always done my speaking through music. universal language. y'all who comprehend and share that are so awesome.
I have pre-existing friends here but they all belong to my ex, if that makes sense. making some new friends on my own but don't feel it's fair to pile my stuff on them. so really alone here. don't even have my cats yet (MY fam). really feel alone.
going through a difficult time and once again (with an updated blocklist to remove the meanness) this has become my safe space.
@Matyko, I have always appreciated your sense of responsibility to humanity. thank you for that track too =)
@g just really happy to be back in contact. music is so much easier than words and I love having that with you. suspect you're the white wolf =)
been working since 2 am and barely made a dent and it's almost 1:30am. need a fucking nap. then back to work, get to the tax office tomorrow for 8 am so my real estate agent doesn't get in shit. to rent a place here you need a TRN and their lines are loooong. if I'm there when they open should cut some hours off the task. I'm already 2 weeks overdue to do it. getting hit by a car the day after a breakup was a bit much for me. then to lose such a loved one who was closer to me than my bio dad when I was coming up...just too much
some well meaning peeps seeing me in pain (no crying-stoicism is all, I think just see the cast and the sadness in my eyes) try to get me embrace 'god' but which one(s)? and which sect of a given choice? feel very much past imaginary friends. way prefer real good people, those at least I can understand-or have chance at doing.
so sincere thanks to you both for being internet strangers who grant so much comfort and kindness to me when it feels everything is falling apart
but champions never give up
I start off every day with these two tracks.
and a track for us all who read this