I'm so sorry. This year you will just get through it. Next year will wreck you.
Now that the anniversary has passed I am getting back control of my mind. I was consumed with thoughts of my mom for a whole month leading up to the anniversary of her death. I really thought something was wrong with me. If I was not doing something, my mind was consumed with visions, thoughts, words.
It's gut-wrenching, and I don't have good advice, but I do have sympathy. I'm so sorry you're going through this. Hugss
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