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Originally Posted by sarettah
We love you dude! Don't you fucking dare go away from here on us and don't you fucking dare die on us.
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all of what S wrote. even tho in your cups hate me for no reason out of the blue (with multiple PMs to prove it), I'm rooting for you too. those messages were from a drunken angry fool but suspect clean you'd be quite different
with the amount you drink going sober flat out can be dangerous
wrote a whole thing about that to you in the past here but wouldn't know where to begin to look for it and doubt you can remember it
alcohol doesn't just fuck with your body, your brain too as S stated above. don't buy that whole Descartes mind/body split thing. won a debate on that in grade school, long before I learned about addiction
this ish is clouding your thinking and ability to function
so to get off it, brief recap
get a valium scrip (swear that ish works wonders on everything) to reduce what your body does when a substance it has become accustomed to is denied it
homeostasis, look it up if you so choose
taper down, with zero hard stuff, no shots, just beer. ask a neighbour to help you, we're talking like $100 max overall but don't beg here. you're not accountable to anyone here. get the money from a neighbour you have to look in the eye
then when clean and on your way up well pay them back and go hug your kid. she'll be more proud of you than anyone
taper down changes your behaviour as well. yeah the first few days not much fun raging against the machine online on one beer. you'll probs puke a lot. that's your stomach getting rid of excess bile cuz you taxing your liver so. keep a wastepaper bin bedside just in case. ask a trusted friend to check on you
kinda been around, know this stuff
all the above with the end goal of kicking it completely. you can do this is week and then hitch rides to AA
you can do this, so many have
@S love you so for this thread
has to start with you Huggles. just fucking do it