Sad to read your post..
I sent you a private message, let's get in touch and I will try to help you somehow.
I am not that active on GFY these days, and don't really know you but you seem like someone who deserves a helping hand to step forward. I can probably give you some hints on how to survive as a clip cutter, so, just email me or find me on Skype (if you find a kazakh account seacrhing for me please just send over your ID and I will ad you - I am not the kazakh guy there)
Peace