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Originally Posted by fuzebox
What's stopping you, fear of dry eyes?
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The lack of mental acuity.
Everthing I witnessed and observed during the last 5 years, which we are basically at the 5 year anniversary of, my theory is that it fundamentally shook my view of the world and society to such a point that it damaged parts of my brain.
I lost all my ambition and stopped caring about everything, just got drunk and worked labour jobs like snow shoveling, firewood collection and delivery, moving jobs, auto repair, and other cash shit like that because I had no mental acuity at all, and a horrible temper if I wasn't baked out of my mind. I wanted to burn down the vaccination centres and had all sorts of nasty thoughts. I could hold it together around my kid, barely, because we just focused on arts & crafts, reading & writing, Five Nights at Freddy's, and teaching her how to cook. At 5 years old, with me watching closely, she could make egg with avocado on toast, and amazing pancakes. The flipping could get a bit messy though. If I didn't have my kid, I doubt I would have made it through COVID, for real.
Once they got rid of the vaccine mandate post-CONVOY and I was allowed back in the gym and pubs in April of 2022, I would get wasted at the bar and talk shit about the vaccinated as loud as possible! Holy fuck I lipped off so many people. My former gregarious and happy-go-lucky self was replaced with this pissed-off, mean stranger I didn't recognize. For like 3 years I gave the finger to every cop and cop car I saw, haha.
It does feel like my mind is healing now, and my alcohol cravings are definitely dwindling along with my consumption. Today I've been working all morning on getting my AI-powered compilation builder ready so I can (mostly) automatically generate videos for Adult and Mainstream.
Sorry for being mean!
