It's okay if you never stop missing someone that was such a large part of your life and your heart. The pain does ease eventually but it will do so on its own time.
Just know that your granddad is with you, watching over you. I truly believe this. It's hard not to when I hear my kids say something that my grandmom would say all the time but we've never said around them. I even asked my son once "Who told you that?" and he said "granmom". I said "My mom?" and he said "No, my other granmom... with glasses".
My mom is the only granmom he knows, she never wears glasses - but *my* grandmom (the one who said that phrase all the time) wore glasses.
They might pass on, but they're still with us. The body is gone, but the spirit is not.
For me what eased my pain was knowing how much pain my grandmom was in and how horrible her life had gotten. It hurt far worse to know she was living in that hell every day than to know that she was finally free of that pain-wracked body. I believe she's in a better place with all of her family, finally pain-free and happy, and she's watching over us... just like your granddad.
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