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What do you mean by "over"? Do you mean never think of him? Or do you mean able to get out of bed every morning and live your life?
On the 16th of this month it will be 10 yrs since my fiance died of cancer. Although it wasn't a sudden accident that took his life, Friday night I was told he was coming home on Saturday and getting better. 24 hours later he was dead.
I wouldn't say that I'm over it. I think about him almost every day. I miss him terribly and wish I could go back and do some things differently. We had a pretty good fight the day before he went into the hospital the last time. And on the day he died he told me that he didn't always know I loved him. Believe me, I have regrets.
But I'm in another relationship with an amazing guy who understands the baggage I bring into our relationship. We're engaged, shopping for a house and even talking about procreation. yikes! I'm happy in my current relationship, but I still miss my old one more often than is probably good for me.
Guilt, like what you're feeling, is the toughest to get over. You've got to let go of the "what ifs" and "should haves" or they'll make you crazy.
I can't tell you how to forget, but I'm working on forgiving myself for things I wish I could do over. Hopefully I'll get there and you will too.
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Bush can no more fire Rove than Charlie McCarthy could fire Edgar Bergen.
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