If you are for real, then you're not the brightest crayon in the box. I miss my son, too, and he'll be 9 in June. I haven't seen him since he was 3.
You still ahve a chance to at least get visitation. Contact an attorney and talk about it. I got screwed and lied to and lost any hope of seeing my son until he's 18.
If this is a joke, go fuck yourself. It's so wrong on so many levels.
