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SuckOnThis · 03-09-2004, 02:42 PM

Some of you may know I was told by the doctor a few weeks ago that I have a tumor in my kidney. He sent me in to have a CT scan done and yesterday I got the results and it was not good. The scan showed the tumor extending into the liver and he said it appeared to be wrapped around some type of main artery that runs up and down the body. From what he told me the survival rate for kidney tumors at this stage are 5-10%, and we don't know if it has spread to other parts of the body, thats the next test I have to do. He's telling me that he wants to do surgery and told me it would be very risky due to the artery.

So since I have no health insurance I will have to pay for the surgery myself, and with such small odds I'm wondering if it would even be worth doing. I have pretty much already accepted the fact that death is a real possibilty. I have a 5 year old and I would at least like to leave him the money I do have, but if I do this surgery there will be none. I know having me around would be a lot more important for him but I feel either way there isnt much hope. I feel terrible for him, I can't even look at him right now without crying. He already has gone through more than he should, his little brother was killed in a car crash a few years ago and me and his mom divorced last year. So I am seriously thinking about not doing anything and when things get to the point where things start getting bad just ending it. Is that so wrong? I don't want him growing up thinking his dad killed himself but I figure why go through all the suffering when that is going to be the outcome anyway. Whats the right thing to do here?

03-09-2004, 02:42 PM
SuckOnThis So Fucking Banned Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: In my head Posts: 6,844	If you are terminal, is suicide wrong? Some of you may know I was told by the doctor a few weeks ago that I have a tumor in my kidney. He sent me in to have a CT scan done and yesterday I got the results and it was not good. The scan showed the tumor extending into the liver and he said it appeared to be wrapped around some type of main artery that runs up and down the body. From what he told me the survival rate for kidney tumors at this stage are 5-10%, and we don't know if it has spread to other parts of the body, thats the next test I have to do. He's telling me that he wants to do surgery and told me it would be very risky due to the artery. So since I have no health insurance I will have to pay for the surgery myself, and with such small odds I'm wondering if it would even be worth doing. I have pretty much already accepted the fact that death is a real possibilty. I have a 5 year old and I would at least like to leave him the money I do have, but if I do this surgery there will be none. I know having me around would be a lot more important for him but I feel either way there isnt much hope. I feel terrible for him, I can't even look at him right now without crying. He already has gone through more than he should, his little brother was killed in a car crash a few years ago and me and his mom divorced last year. So I am seriously thinking about not doing anything and when things get to the point where things start getting bad just ending it. Is that so wrong? I don't want him growing up thinking his dad killed himself but I figure why go through all the suffering when that is going to be the outcome anyway. Whats the right thing to do here?