Sarah_Jayne

Thanks to pepople fighting my corner. I didn't sleep much but I got an hour or so. I am cleaning out a room so my folks have a place to stay when they get over here in the next day or so. It looks like I won't be able to have the funeral until atleast Thursday since the coroner is required by law to have an inquest since he died so young and without warning. They won't be able to give me a death cert until then and they can't legally do anything with his body until then. I made an appointment to pick up the death cert on Wednesday. They say I can start arranging the funeral inbetween but no one will give me a clue as to the costs and I sort of wanted to wait until my parents got here to start calling places since I don't want to be taken for a ride right now.

I have to say a few things whilst they are on the top of my very clouded head and then I will go back to destructing my house and throwing everything away that I can bare to get rid of at the moment. It is dumb but it is productive and slightly theraputic.

Firstly, Shemp just called me and that moved me to tears. You are a star sir.

Secondly, Baddog - for someone that has only ever once shook my hand and traded a biz card with me you are feeling like one of my gaurdian angels right now. I am not a touchy feely person but if I ever see you again (don't knowt he next biz thing I will be at) I owe you the type of hug only a BBW can give.

Thirdly, I want to thank everyone that is helping me. I didn't ask for the collections to start up and if you ask Todd he will tell you that I felt really bad about it when it started up. However, I would be a total liar to say I don't need it. I read a post by someone on another board saying that I must be getting a huge insurance payout. I would just suggest that person never had to try to get life insurance for a disabled person. He has an old pension from before his accident but he hasn't worked since then and if I get anything (which I might not) it will be maybe a couple hundred pounds. I have been his carer for eight years and I have been the bread earner. I will lose the rent control on this place and maybe the place (waiting to see...I am afraid to make that phone call just yet) and he was recieving diability benefits which to be frank were keeping our heads above water. Add to that what the rate of exchange is with the dollar to the pound at the moment and understand why I am going to be in bad place for a while.

I started to call and do little things like take my cable down to the very basic channels and those guys tried to upsell me even when I told them why. I am going to either take the radio station I run down to the very basic package too or cancel it totally since I don't think I will be able to afford it. Kind of waste of a zillion and one MP3s but he did them all for me and not sure how great I feel about playing them right now...let alone djing anytime in the near future. Though, maybe a tribute show soon..dunno.

Anyway, I am just going on and on when I really mean to say - thank you all so much. You know, I just go through every day waking up and sitting down at my computer for another day of board posting and helping clients and I feel like I am just one name of many. Nothing that special in this industry but atleast for one little bit I feel like people have noticed that I try to be honest and trustworthy.

Oh, and before I go (need to do stuff around the house..looks like a bomb zone) I wanted to also just mention to 12clicks that I cried when I read his post in that my first thread. Politics matter jack shit on a day like today...even though I am pissed Thatcher outlived Marc.