Thanks for the advice everyone...
I agree with alot of the points, including the one about me being unreliable. However the women who feel that is the problem need to realize this women has been pushing me to drink when we go out together... Telling me I can have a couple drinks I have been doing so well ... etc
Her serious issues with me when I was emotionally abusive were NOT when I was drunk, it was when I was tweaked out of my mind and I have been clean from them shit for wel... 18 months which seems like a life time to me. I have NO DESIRE to go back to that - It cost me hundreds of thousands of dollars and two failed businesses... I also became a person I am not.
The fact that I am just coming around to being closer with my family is sad and wrong that it wasn't sooner... But as an addict and alchoholic I have dealt with alot the last couple of years quitting drinking and I am starting to appreciate the little things in life more. She herself said she has realized this and it means alot to her....
Why would she still tell me it's OK to do Coke though after all the shit I put her through on it ? "You can buy a gram and I'll do a couple nummies - you just can't do foiles or snort 1/2 gram lines" is what I ahve heard over and over from her. "You can drink, You have done so well" is also what I have heard. I really don't think it has anything to do with my drugging and/or drinking in the past...
I'm going to talk to her frankly about it tonight and see how it goes - Right now I have to sober up entirely since I woke up stil drunk
