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2006 The year of the comeback, my New Years Resolution
My New Year's resolution is to make amends, and earn your trust back.
2005 was a very tough year for me personally as well as business wise.
It was the year I had to shut my business down, and the year I went from being the employer to the employee.
I spent most of the year angry, and bitter. Some of my reasons were justified, but how I responded certainly was not.
I am not trying to explain away some of my actions, but hoping that it will give you a clearer insight to where my head was.
Some people recall I lost my mother a few years back to suicide. I have carried a lot of guilt around for the past 2 1/2 years.
You see, I left Fort Worth , Texas *upon lawyers advice* for Vegas to start some paysites with the partner I had then.
We were going to be shooting our own content and it was suggested Fort Worth was not the place to do that.
When I arrived in Vegas we lost our focus, and we spent that time developing Diabolical Galleries, something I could have done from Texas.
I left my mother during a time when she was vulnerable physically. There was family down there at the time, but I knew my leaving hit her hard psychologically.
Anyway to make a long story short, nothing I have done out here in Vegas could not have been done back in Texas, so when my business fell apart it hit me especially hard.
I not only felt like a failure, but I felt like a failure who had left his mother behind when she needed him most and had nothing to show for it, I had done nothing that would have made her proud.
Regardless, these are my own personal issues and should have not trickled over into my business life.
So with that being said, my New Year's Resolution is to hopefully make amends with those I have hurt or offended.
I would like to begin with a public apology.
First to a few people I attacked personally, I know these are just words, but I am truly sorry please accept my most humble apologies.
Juicy
Franck
Laura Lee
GatorB
Anthony
Xpays Evan
Pete-KT
Chris from pushpills
Rui - don't know what I said to you, but I know we don't get along
Dave
If there is anybody I have left out it's not intentional, I'm trying to remember everyone I might have offended over the last year.
There are others who feel I have let them down and some who I actually did let down, they know who they are and they will be taken care of, it may take some time only because I am having to make up for a lot of lost time now.
All in all, those who have worked with me over the years, and those who have done business with me over the years I would hope that you have come to know who the real eros/ Cary is and if I have offended you in anyway intentionally or unintentionally or you feel I have let you down I hope you too can forgive me.
I would hope that anyone on this board that has had dealings with me over the years whether it's personal or business would remember the nice guy that they all welcomed into their lives, and forget the bitter asshole that showed up at GFY's door last year.
I don't expect forgiveness, that option is left up to you all. But it won't stop me from trying to win your hearts again.
Once again, I am sorry.
Cary
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