I feel like i owe a few people an explanation to my behaviour lately... I've caught myself giving a few people on icq a bunch of 1 word replies cause i haven't really been talkative etc... and also kinda tripped out on a few people and got upset over nothing
1.) I'm no longer with epiccash... so if you have anything you need help with or anything, please forward it to Jim or Jeff or any of those other guys, and they will be happy to help... There's no drama, and it's no ones business other then me and epiccash's...I still love the crew over at epiccash, and wish them the very best... They have a lot of great things in store for '06... I don't want this to turn into one of those "rep x leaves company x" threads... i just figured i'd throw it into this thread as a heads up, so people know not to contact me about epic stuff... please also don't ask me why i'm no longer with epic... but be sure there is no drama involved.
2.) the reason i've been edgy, is because my relationship with my gf of 4.5 years ended a little over a week ago... I'm 19 so i've never had to deal with anything like this before.. but i'll just say it has been a complete mindfuck and i need some time to gather myself and figure out what i'm going to do...
also i'd like to offer some of you other people advice on that subject
4.5 years ago, i had an amazing social life... was out almost every day, had a beautiful girlfriend... I'm the kind of guy that doesn't let a girl pay for anything when shes with me, regardless of my financial situation... So i decided to start my own business (my program)... everything i have done to this date, was to secure a good future for me and my gf so that she would never have to work etc... so i kinda became obsessed with working on my program.. I slowly began to push all my friends out of my life, cause i had the mindset that fun can come later... and that i need to get my hustle on now...
Big mistake. i got to the point where i was working till 5am everyday, then waking up really late and starting to work again... see my gf for a few hours, and then get back to work... a vicious cycle. It got to the point where i didn't really even feel like going out places with my GF , cause i would rather work cause i came kind of obsessed with it...
so even though i was doing this shit all with the motivation of securing a future with my gf, i was pushing her more and more out of my life... to the point of actually not being part of my life anymore.
So now i've somewhat had a revelation, and thought i'd share it with you guys... don't get too caught up in your work... in this past week and a bit, i've started seeing my old friends again and started going out every day and remember what living was actually like...
so where do i go from here?
1.) Even though it would be a stupid financial move for me right now... i'm going to buy this.... i need it for my mental health.. need to treat myself to something right now. I've worked too fucking long and don't really have shit to show for it... so i'm going to get this and ride the fucking hell out of it, cause i'm that type of person who just loves driving
2.) continuing to work out every day, setting a proper work schedule - 10am-6pm and then go out with friends.. I was lucky that my friends were all understanding about why i basically became a hermit for so long... Couldn't tell you how something as simple as a BBQ at my friends place with 6-8 of my good friends helped me so much...also spending time with some of my girl - friends is helping a lot (cause i don't feel like as big of a bitch whining to them, haha)
3.) i should follow my own advice. I tell people my age... you're too young to be in a relationship... you need to be out there having fun etc etc, and there i was in a relationship for 4.5 years
4.) i am launching 10 more paysites for
www.sexfeeder.com as soon as they go through visa approval (submitting them on monday) , so please check it out and see if it's anything you wanna give a shot
there is nothing more i want then to be successful..I have the hunger and i know it won't even go away... so hopefully 2006 is a great year for me and everybody else.. i wish you all the best
Why am i posting such personal shit here? after being on this forum for so long... and having met so many great people... i honestly do consider a lot of you friends.
Special thanks to chio for offering me some help with some of my sites in the future - this guy isn't just a pirate - hes one of the most generous people i've met to date
and another special thanks to joker for listening to my bitching and giving me advice on how to deal with my breakup.. this guy literally spent many many hours telling me what i should expect, and how to deal with it.. and for that i'm grateful
well..... that was a lot longer then i thought it was gonna be..