I wrote this over 8 years ago in a pile of tears

[seeric]

abandoned by a woman, wow how life changes. it seemed like it was all over. decisions to make. see if you can name what i'm talking about. it saved me. this is pretty personal to me but i don't have a prob showing any of my sides to anyone. i am what i am.


sometimes I'm lonely but i just don't mind
can't stop feeling empty but i just can't cry
a lot of things change day in and day out
you make me feel good and help me stay proud
the worlds on my shoulder will they please let me be
alone to my thoughts why can't they just see
my mind is your temple you'll always live there
to ever see you gone would leave me in fear
i know its the best and its not like i mind
stay with me in my prayers in my mind till i die
why do we do the things that we do
the people we see the things that we prove
leave me today alone to my thoughts
you'll see me tomorrow kiss my ears in the dark
you live your life inside my chest
my arms tight the pressure is great
we'll bring down the walls until night turns to light
i have a good feeling this thing that we've created
sometimes it works out i'll never try to replace it
you're now in my life it's you that i needed
you stayed by my side you kept me patient
i'll always be there for you till life turns to death
if you're not in my life they can have my last breath
in my heart i'll always have everything you gave
and with me you'll go someday to my grave
airek


what am i?

for the whole story see

http://www.superstarfreaks.com/blog/


damn life is freaky.

[Shakula]

If you dont know what pain is, then you wont know what happiness is.
You have to face pain in your life so you can appreciate the good times in your life.

Yin & Yang , One cannot exist without the other.

[Sly]

Life goes on my friend. Always.

Well... unless you die.

[seeric]

I agree. It is amazing how despair seems so unconquerable at the moment it is staring you in the face. Some crazy shit. Compared to some of the things people go through, what I experienced aint shit, just thought I'd share. The work never ends and like you say Sly, life will ALWAYS go on. With or without you. Stick around and make a difference. Piss off the world that they still have to deal with you .

[Shakula]

Originally Posted by A1R3K

I agree. It is amazing how despair seems so unconquerable at the moment it is staring you in the face. Some crazy shit. Compared to some of the things people go through, what I experienced aint shit, just thought I'd share. The work never ends and like you say Sly, life will ALWAYS go on. With or without you. Stick around and make a difference. Piss off the world that they still have to deal with you .

I want to share something with you Airek.
Last year I started working as intern in a hospital (i study MD).

So after my lunch, I go back to the clinic and the doctor who is my supervisor gives me a chart of a girl who is 11 years old.

He looks into my eyes without saying something, so I knew something was wrong. Anyway, I go to the girl and talk to her while reading her chart.

She had been to the hospital so many times the past year.
She had a brain tumor. Unfortently there was nothing we could do to help her.
Brain tumor has different scales , from I to IV. She had IV.

She looks at me after a while and says "Im scared, please dont give me a shoot, can you just give me tablets so i become healthy."

What can I do? Telling a 11 year old that she is going to die, there is no medicin on this planet that can help her.

After that, life really changed.

[seeric]

Originally Posted by Shakula

I want to share something with you Airek.
Last year I started working as intern in a hospital (i study MD).

So after my lunch, I go back to the clinic and the doctor who is my supervisor gives me a chart of a girl who is 11 years old.

He looks into my eyes without saying something, so I knew something was wrong. Anyway, I go to the girl and talk to her while reading her chart.

She had been to the hospital so many times the past year.
She had a brain tumor. Unfortently there was nothing we could do to help her.
Brain tumor has different scales , from I to IV. She had IV.

She looks at me after a while and says "Im scared, please dont give me a shoot, can you just give me tablets so i become healthy."

What can I do? Telling a 11 year old that she is going to die, there is no medicin on this planet that can help her.

After that, life really changed.

tragic. makes you really pissed off at the ones who do have a chance that just don't want to go on. makes you wish that you can shake em and snap em out of the false reality they are living in. thank god i made it through and didn't check out. for that i am still thankful. even if i don't give myself happiness i have given others some.

[nico-t]

Originally Posted by A1R3K

sometimes I'm lonely but i just don't mind
can't stop feeling empty but i just can't cry
a lot of things change day in and day out
you make me feel good and help me stay proud
the worlds on my shoulder will they please let me be
alone to my thoughts why can't they just see
my mind is your temple you'll always live there
to ever see you gone would leave me in fear
i know its the best and its not like i mind
stay with me in my prayers in my mind till i die
why do we do the things that we do
the people we see the things that we prove
leave me today alone to my thoughts
you'll see me tomorrow kiss my ears in the dark
you live your life inside my chest
my arms tight the pressure is great
we'll bring down the walls until night turns to light
i have a good feeling this thing that we've created
sometimes it works out i'll never try to replace it
you're now in my life it's you that i needed
you stayed by my side you kept me patient
i'll always be there for you till life turns to death
if you're not in my life they can have my last breath
in my heart i'll always have everything you gave
and with me you'll go someday to my grave
airek


what am i?

you're gay

[havengr]

lovely well done