Originally Posted by eroswebmaster
(Post 13444163)
Moderators: If this is against the rules, please let me know, I am not looking to get the nick banned. I will just stop using it after Saturday, but I do plan on responding for the next couple of days.
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As you can see this nick is almost 7 years old and has over 20K posts.
You are probably wondering why I am selling...well continue reading at your own peril.
In the beginning know one knew me. Then quickly I was considered by many in this community as one of the nicest guys in the business, and when someone was in need of services my name was dropped more often than not.
My client base included some of the top names on this board. But when even they became difficult when it came time to pay, to the point one even tried to renege on a deal worth almost $10,000 and as a last resort I came on the boards, it was I who suffered the most.
I didn't lose business, mainly because at that point in time I had cease to operate and had moved on. However, due to some of the reactions in this community because they valued money over morals, I grew bitter.
I went from being one of the nicest guys in this business, to one of the bigger assholes.
I pride myself on my loyalty, as well as my impartiality. One of my best friends described me to my dad like this. "While Cary can at times be a bit hot headed, he is one of the most fiercely loyal friends I have ever had."
One of the most important lessons in life my dad has taught me, is to stand up to injustice, and that's where my impartiality comes in.
I don't care if you've wronged me. If you are being wronged, I will be one of the first to come stand by your side and defend you.
I don't live in a world of black and white, my world has varying shades of grey, and more often than not the emperor wears no clothes, and I'm willing to put myself on the line to point that out.
This too has cost me. Contrary to popular belief, if people have a booger hanging from their nose, they don't want it pointed out. They'd much rather be told a lie, that they look just fine. Kind of like when your girlfriend asks you if that pair of jeans makes her ass look fat.
However, because of my loyalty, and my impartiality, this has led me to be brutally honest. If you ask me for my opinion, I will give it to you. It may not be what you wanted to hear, but you're going to get what I feel is my honest opinion.
In the last few months on here, I have tried to make amends. Tone down the negativity I displayed during that period when I was really angry. But I have learned there is no point, other than to find my true self.
Not many here really care. 95% of the people who used to praise me only show up now to jump on the bandwagon to kick me.
It has nothing to do with whether I was negative or not. It only has to do with the fact that I no longer have anything of value to offer them. Because those same people, if I were a program owner that shaved, but not so much that they still made a nice profit that they were comfortable with, they would turn their backs on the lowly little gallery maker I ripped off.
No one here affects my life in any shape or form or so I thought. I do not provide a service, I do not send anyone here any traffic, I buy designs occasionally, but that's it in a nutshell.
But then I realized that there are a group of people here who do affect me. In the last few months I have been exposed to some asian chick crushing a kittens skull, another chick defecating in a cup so someone else can eat it, and to top it off, some poor dead girl who's corpse is being defiled by one sick individual. That's just been in the last few months, there have been over 6 1/2 years of shit like this on this baord.
Then there is the negativity that grows here that is like a virus. You catch it, and before you know it you're spreading it.
Take for example guys like BradM and Franck. Back in the day, they too were considered nice guys, and are now two of the more bitter persons on this board. I hope you guys can find it in your heart to change. You're too young to be so angry, and I apologize for anything I may have done to help perpetuate that anger.
There are many others here like them, and this community will continue to grow whether I am here or not.
A community where the barriers of what is tasteful continue to deteriorate. A community that finds humor in the pain and misery of others. A community that continuously exposes itself to some of the darkest most vile corners of this electronic world we live and work in.
I can no longer be a part of such a dark energy. There will be those who tell me that they've been on mainstream boards that make GFY look like Church.
I would have to say while that may be true, I have not. I don't see dead bodies or defecation on sitepoint. If you are participating in mainstream boards where you will find some of the things you do here on GFY, then that says more about you and your choices, than it does about anything else.
I am leaving on vacation early Saturday morning, and over the past couple of weeks there has been a lot going on in my mind. I am actively working on improving my life, physically, and morally.
First, do no harm. A precept that is taught to medical students, and something we should remind ourselves of every day. This is something I am trying to live by from here on out.
I want to eradicate as many negative influences from my life as possible, and GFY is one of them.
Okay the door is open, come bash me at will.
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